Jack in the Box

Halloween Costumes

I love these pictures. Terry and Adam decided to be "Jack" and his son from Jack in the Box. They couldn't find balloons big enough to fit over their gigantic heads!!! But then Terry brought these home but they ended up not doing it.

My Garage Room

OK, Paul says we worked on the "Garage Room". It is my new family room. I don't like it being called the garage room, but I suppose that is what it is. It is an addition that used to be our carport. I cornered Paul and begged him to help me put in the flooring in my new FAMILY ROOM :o). He was so sweet and helped me all day. Terry was the Foreman and told us what to do and we put in the entire wood laminate floor. It was quite fun actually. I love my new room. Thank you Paul... I could not have done it by myself.

Family groups

Terry and I went to Muir Woods. I adore the forest. These particular trees are thousands of years old. It was very theraputic for me to walk through this gigantic majestic forest. It was cold and overcast. It is right by San Fransisco. In front of one group of trees was a plaque. If you look very closely at this picture you can see what looks like a burnt dead tree in the center. All around it is new growth. They call this a family group. From the ruins of the old dead tree, sprouts up new growth. It was quite inspiring for me. It is the start of new growth in my life.

Christmas Cheer

I was crying as I drove to the airport to take Adam to California. Every year Adam and I end up decorating our Christmas tree. This year we got only as far as putting up the tree and then we told Adam that he could have his wish and go live with his dad. Everything came to a screaching halt as he was so excited and started packing. As we walked out the door I told Terry that Adam and I always did the tree. Terry called Paul and Jenna who were watching the dogs for us. Jenna played secret santa and came in and decorated my entire tree. I walked in the house when we got back and purposely avoided even looking at the tree. I was buzzing around trying to stay busy and Terry said, come sit down. I sat and there it was in all it's glory. THank you Jenna, you made me feel so loved and cherished.

2 people

Two people doesn't seem like much, but they are more than my world, they are my entire existence. On December 5th, Andrew, their dad, may have thought that he "won". In actuality he received the biggest gift that I could ever give. It has shattered my heart into such minuscule pieces that i don't know that i will ever be able to retrieve the shards, let alone put them back together. i dont know how i ended up in this place. what i do know is that i love katie and adam so much that i will do anything asked of me from them for them. i LET them go to their father's to live. though, everything in my being says it is wrong. i know that they have to do this. i know that i did not do anything wrong, though it feels as if i did. i know that God and guardian angels will be surrounding katie and adam, ALWAYS! i have spent countless hours in prayer. i will continue to pray for them, about them and with them. i know that God has a plan that i do not know. i know that this is the season of giving, i pray that andrew realizes the gift he has just been given. i pray that andrew will cherish this gift.